Okay so I realize that nothing is really "supposed to" feel any certain way...each person is different and handles things differently. With that being said... OMG I'm totally stressing out. I am NOT good at making decisions, it takes me forever...but on the other hand I'm a bit of a control freak. I never really wanted to get married because I've seen so many marriages fall apart... then I met this man and fell completely and totally head over heals for him - we matched in all the ways I thought was important, common interests, morals, we laugh, we are silly together and so many more. So then next thing I know I'm dreaming of getting married to him with sand between my toes, something small cause I don't love the idea of being the center of attention. Now that he has proposed and I get to start planning the dream I have for a wedding... I'm having so many doubts. I am doubting him, our 4 years together, our future together... I'm doubting the wedding in the sand, it is too $$, too far away, etc.
I am not even planning on getting married until 2011 and I'm already freaking out. Is there something wrong with me... am I Sam from Sex in the City? Is that me breaking into hives when I try on the wedding dress? Is it even the wedding, or is there something bigger going on?
I realize most of these are questions that only I can answer, but for some reason it just feels better putting them out there in the open. Thanks ladies for being there... lol...wherever you are!