I lost my mom also. I'm going to be having a charm made an have it on my bouquet. My Fi also lost his brother so I will have his their also. I'm thinking about releaseing 2 ballons after we say our vows unsure about that. I will be having an AHR so I will be have the charms and a poem framed on a table from them. I'm sorry for your lost. You will find something that works best for you