im having surgery in a week and getting really scared :(
Posted 14 September 2008 - 09:47 PM
I have a genetic condition that I got from my mom that means I definately was going to get colon cancer and I know have it...and its a disease that I lost my mom to when I was 13 ....Now that I am 21 I have to go through surgery to pretty much save my life before I get really sick and I have been having alot of breakdowns lately and Will (my FI) has been amazing with me but I just dont know what to do some days. I just wish I could finish college with my friends who are all doing 4th year right now but instead I have to be doing this...its a long surgery and then I am in hospital for two weeks after and then in bed for 3 months and then back in for a second surgery and after that it is about a month recovery and then I can go back to regular life!...thats just such a long time and it really bothers me
So tomorrow I am meeting with my specialist for my final appointment before the surgery and I already had a breakdown tonight thinking about this its becoming way too real and i just wish I could be healthy and not have to go through this I just really needed to vent on here and get this out....I am having a really difficult time thinking about everything that is going to start happening in a week ...its going to be February or so before im all better and until then I am pretty much on a liquid diet ....well the only good thing that I can joke about is that my FI said this is the best diet ever (I dont need one though lol) and I will be really tiny when i go try on wedding dresses lol....but seriously this is getting scary and im having alot of trouble sleeping at night lately ....I havent slept alone in about a year and will miss Will ALOT when I am in hospital for two weeks...but I know this will make me better its just gonna be a really long road for recovery.... thanks for listening to me..sorry this was so long
Posted 14 September 2008 - 09:49 PM
I can't even imagine how scared you are. You have every right to vent and feel scared.
You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted 14 September 2008 - 09:52 PM
I bet you will have way more support that you can imagine when this surgery happens. I wish you the best possible outcome.
Posted 14 September 2008 - 10:05 PM
Hang in there, and remember that we're here rooting for you. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
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