Shelly...I don't know you but I think you are so brave!! I'm really proud of you for saving your life and fighting for all that matters to you. Its totally understandable that your scared. But once you've completely healed and you get to live a long life with your husband, you will see it was all worth it. You and your husband are very special people. i will keep you both in my prayers. Lets kick this cancers ass and have one hell of a wedding!!!