Lately I've been having wedding nightmares. Basically I dream about all of the things on my "wedding shit" to do list. I think this means that I need to get my ass in gear and get stuff done. While in reality I have no motivation to do so.
I am really excited for the wedding. But I'm SOOO over planning it. And, to be honest, most of my "planning" was finding a location and a dress. And those two things alone have totally swallowed up all of my wedding planning desires.
I think part of it, is that Joe and I have been engaged for, what seems like, a lifetime now. I always thought of our wedding as "SOOO far away! I've got tons of time" Well, that's not really true anymore. I've got 5 months. And that freaks me out! I haven't done anything aside from sending out invites. I haven't bought anything, aside from a dress, flip flops, and travel candles for the OOT bags. I know I need to get on the ball and get stuff in order, so that it's not all last mintue. But I just can't find the desire to do stuff.
What's even more funny, is that I love little details. So why can't I get motivated to give our wedding these little details I love so much?! A year ago, I was ALL ABOUT planning, but forced myself to let it go because it was too early. Now that it's not too early, I can't get myself do to anything.
Ok, thanks for letting me get that off my chest.