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It is truly the hardest thing in the world to get through.
The only thing that keeps me going is that she would want me to have the wedding I want. I am trying to incorporate everyway I can. I am wearing her wedding dress, my niece is wearing a necklace with her (she was cremated),putting her picture on my bouquet and walking down the aisle to my parents wedding song.
I have come to realize after all the denial and all the anger that I have felt in the past 2 months that I can't have her back here, and that absolutely devastates me to no end. I have to do everything I can to have her at the wedding. She wouldnt want me to be miserable.
I have so many rough moments, and you will too. Two months later and I still ask why and how could this happen? Why I dont have my mother? You do go on, whether at that moment you want to or not.
You will make it through. It doesnt seem possible right now, but you do.
When something like this happens it just reminds us to love those people we love and tell them that. Life is just too short...