And after this post... I am done. Sorry to take up the entire page! I was away from BDW for a few days and had to get caught up!
I somehow managed to be down 3 pounds from last week, bringing me to a whopping 184.5. Just another, you know, 60 odd pounds to go . Despite all my cheery comments I am actually having a super down day. Just really disappointed in myself for allowing me to get to this point. I swore last year when I dropped to 168, I would absolutely never, ever see 180 on that scale again. And then I go flying past that and get all the way to 190 and beyond.
I was thinking back when my FI and I first got together (okay, yes, it was in high school, not the best comparison), and how skinny and small I was. Yes, life gets a hold of you and you don't have time to eat right and work out properly while going to school and working. I guess it should make me feel better that he still finds me as attractive today as he did back then, if not more. But I guess, on a purely physically level, I wonder how he can. I find me disgusting, so how can he not???
Okay, got that out, so time to move away from those evil, negative thoughts and into a more positive frame of mind!