Hey I am totally around, just weary of this forum, long story don’t ask…. at this point I am not really stressed about the planning, never really was aside from those very rare moments of panic I just feel down. This should be the most exciting time in our lives, and at times it really was, but due to external forces it seems that although dear FH and I are stronger than ever, in terms of general mood we are just blah! I just don’t want to bring any of you ladies down so I have just stayed away for a little while.