So I came online bright and early this morning because I am devastated. Too bad there isn't a smiley/emoticon that is hysterical crying because that's what I need right now. I started off with 8 BMs, all my bestest friends of my LIFE, and my FH has 9 ushers ... yeah he asked one more person without checking with me about the count... anyways in the past month, i've had two BMs back out on me because it's "too expensive" for them. The second being just this morning. I'm so incredibly sad, I just cannot picture my day without them. I don't know what to do and I can't help but think there are still more than 9 months to go!!! there is plenty of time to save!!! but what do I know, I don't know their budgets or if they have left over to save. neither of them have the most stable job on the universe... im just heartbroken and don't have the heart to even debate anything with them...i mean, i don't feel right doing so...but at the same time i feel like writing--look, you have x amount of months, just put away x amount of dollars to save, etc etc... Now FH has 9 ushers and I have 6. @$!($^& help me feel better please