| Originally Posted by SgtPepperette |
I have been in counseling....and couldnt imagine how much harder it would be if I wasnt!
Im wondering when Ill move past this very angry phase. Im still so angry with her, and her choices. My mom knows a little bit of how I feel but not as much as she should. Or should I say understand it as much as she should. We are pretty sure she has a mental illness (she refuses to see anyone, but my therapist says it sounds like she may have multiple personality disorder) due to her upbringing and past. Its hard to talk to her and get through to her sometimes. She twists everything around. Very one sided and always about her. Everyone is always out to get her. I asked her to go to counseling with me and she refuses. She says that family problems stay within the family and we are not going to a stranger to talk about them. I also think this is partly due to her upbringing. Honestly, I dont see her in my life at all. As sad as that is. I wonder if Ill feel different once I start having kids though.
We have had a long history of situations like this. My dad was our buffer, and now that hes not there well we cant make things work. I think Im also to fragile right now to be in the mindframe I need to be with to deal with her. Ive gone through many years of therapy learning how to set boundaries with her, and handle her ridlicious reactions to things. But right now I cant muster the energy for it.
On a more positive note, I LOVE THE BEATLES! Actually last year my FI and I bought a mini cooper, he is white with black racing stripes. We named him sgtpepper Hes coming to the wedding to lol
YAY i like the beatles too. my bro was always a huge fan so thats how i first heard them. hey, and nothing heals the heart like some good music, the beatles are DEF good for that!!!!!