Haven't been on for a while, I feel kind of lost at the moment, we still haven't decided on a hotel and because I can't book anything until March I don't feel like i'm getting married at the moment. I am really struggling with choosing a hotel, every one I choose has good and bad points about it and i'm finding it difficult to decide. I'm trying to find a hotel that suits the people that may be coming but still something that we want. I can't just choose what we want because what we want would cost everybody else an absolute fortune 'Cancun Palace', and i've at least decided that my family being there is more important than a plush hotel as long as the hotel is beautiful and I get married with my loved ones there that's all I want. On top of that the prices have increased alot because of the air tax (approx £300 per person based on July 2011 prices) and people that I thought would definitley come are now saying that they don't think they can make it.
I was talking to my cousin yesterday who is like my sister and i couldn't imagine getting married without her there but she has 3 kids (they'll be aged 15, 10, and 1) and it's going to cost her about £5500 to get out to Mexico. Although I'm telling her that I dont expect her to pay that and I completely understand if she couldn't come because she can spend £5k on a million other things that are more important than my wedding, she knows that my wedding wouldn't be the same without her there and vice versa, so she is feeling the pressure to come...i feel awful, because both her and her sister (who is also like my sister) are not made of money and will find it so hard to come.
People have asked me to consider doing it in Cyprus or even over here, but OH and me if i'm honest have got our hearts set on Mexico (if we ever choose a hotel)...I just feel so confused and very guilty that family feel under pressure, becasue they couldn't imagine missing my wedding so will find anyway possible to get there.
I just feel really really low at the moment.