My latest Anxiety

[amandalovesryan]

So, those of you who know anything about me, know that I have anxiety and OCD issues. Well, guess what? With the wedding one week away, things are in high gear! My latest anxiety is this: what if the plane that has everyone I love in it, crashes? I cannot stop thinking about it. If I am alone or sitting around, this pops into my head. I am having trouble falling asleep at night with worry. Does anyone else ever think this or am I the only looney-tune?

Another anxiety is that something bad will happen to somebody before we leave. That is also something that I cannot stop thinking about. I know that it is stupid, that nothing I do can change what is going to happen but I cannot help it. Even as I type this, it sounds silly but tell that to my brain! I think I need a xanax! Oh well, at least typing it makes me feel better! I cannot really tell anyone about this except Ryan and my mom. So it feels better to tell you guys! Thanks for listening!

[boscobel]

OMG, I have the same fear, but was afraid to even say it out loud or tell anyone, cuz then I didn't want them scared to get on the plane either!

[stacey]

Honey, beilieve me, you are not the only one that does this. When I was really starting to get frusterated with the whole planning thing, I started breaking out into hives all over my body, I have never had that before. Something I learned though...... alcohal works wonders!!!

[Yari]

You are not alone. I also have the same fear.

 

Lately, I am freaking out that my FI is going to get hurt or die. I have not told anyone this, cause I know I am being silly. But I think about it constantly. I am so happy and afraid that it will go away...

[amandalovesryan]

do you guys know how much I love you?!?! I really thought that I was crazy! Carly, you must be super stressed because it is soon time for you to leave too! Thanks so much for telling me that I am not alone! It makes me feel less like having nervous diarrhea!

[Kristy!]

I've definitely thought about the plane crashing with so many people I love on it. (I'll be on a different flight from most of my guests and FI.) It's totally normal, you just can't let it get the best of you.

[boscobel]

I know, and then I worry about the guilt that I would have to live with forever, if the peopl ethat I loved were hurt on the way to my wedding! Ahhhhhh!

 

I am trying to reason those thougts away by saying, that I am only worrying aboutt hat cuz there is nothing else to worry about since it's so close! Yeah, that's it. A mind just needs something to worry about, so it's making it up.

[amandalovesryan]

i think about the guilt too and then I feel guilty for thinking about the guilt!

 

oh well, off to get a facial! Maybe that will help!

[boscobel]

hahahaa, me too! Guilty for feeling guilty. Man we ARE going crazy. I can't wait for the quiet after the storm. (Ya know the time right AFTER the wedding, when there is nothing to do, nothing to craft, nothing to worry about.)

[amandalovesryan]

carly, the facial helped! i def recommend it!