I confess that I think that I am growing out of one of my friends. We have been friends for quite some time and have had some really fun times together, but I feel like our interests are becoming quite different. For example, for Canada day, she wanted us all to go to the big park to get drunk, where the whole town will be. I remember doing that when I was in high school. Plus, I'm a teacher now so I'd be fired if I did crap like that. These days Id rather stay home with my husband or have friends over for some drinks and conversation (which is what I ended up doing anyway, and which my friend left after 5 minutes and called us all lame). I am newly married, just started my career, and I just don't have interest in doing what she wants to do (and this started before I was married, it's not like I just suddenly became "lame" now that I'm married) lol. She hasn't done anything with her life and parties pretty much every day. I feel bad, but I really dont see our friendship lasting much longer. One night I was super tired from work and told her I couldn't make it out so she made some comment about me wearing "granny panties" and that I was lame. I also confess that I probably won't tell her, I'll just stop hanging out with her.
I also confess that I just got home from work and got really upset with my husband because he was sleeping on the couch (and once he's asleep there's no waking him up), and the one hour between me getting home and the time we had to go to bed was going to be pretty much the only hour we got to spend time together all week. After getting mad, I realized that the reason he is so exhausted is because he has been working SO incredibly much (double shifts, etc) because his employees suck. Then I started cleaning up and found a package of cold medication tea sitting on the counter and remembered that not only has he been overworked lately, but also has a cold. What a great wife I am, hey?? So now I feel awful about it but I REALLY want to hang out with him!! Darn our complete opposite shifts!!! I'll just have to wait until the next hour we get together and make it up to him (though I GUARANTEE he won't remember me bugging him when he wakes up tomorrow because he barely woke up when I was talking to him).
My last confession is that when I think about the future it stresses me out beyond belief that I dont think we will ever be in a place where I can come home from work and not clean. Even after cleaning for 5 hours the other day, I get home from work and the house is just TRASHED, and we both work a lot!! I don't have any idea how it gets like this so fast, and it stresses me out beyond belief. The worst part is, it's just the two of us-- what will happen when we have kids??? It feels so pointless to even clean because it just gets messed up before I have the chance to enjoy a clean house!!